New Year, new word.
That's how it has been for 4 years straight. This year...Finish. Not like, I'm from Finland Finish, but to complete what I start.
I have a bad habit of seeing or dreaming up big ideas, and never seeing them through. That is honestly why I went into acting (for those that don't know, I have a degree in Theatre.) I was passionate about a new career every week! So, what is the best thing to do? Go into a field where you can pretend to be whatever you want and then move on...perfect for me, at least.
So, that is what I do. I find something that lights my fancy, for a time, and then I move on. When it gets too hard, or doesn't excite me as much as it did last week or I feel a nudge...
But this year, I want to start only things I plan on finishing. And finishing everything I commit too. So if I say no to you, don't take it personally, just trying to not overload so I can do all things well.
So, I plan on starting and finishing
-my running plan
-my healthy eating plan
-disciplining my children in love, not anger
-monthly date night
-weekly Bible Study
-Daily BCP and Scripture study
and who knows what else. David told me a quote he read on a local pastor's FB page and it is my subtitle for the year.
Desire doesn't change our destiny, discipline does.
May your year be one that you finish...well.
Oh yeah, and the music is new too! Some songs that I like, have liked and make me bop my head! uh,uh...feel it!
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Monday, December 14, 2009
What if...
It's quiet...shocking,at 8:29 am. Millie is usually up and ready to go, but the Lord is giving me what I need...So I write, again, what I need.
As I have been thinking this Advent season, about the journey that Mary took, the logistics of the culture and details of her pregnancy and birth, I am seeing God in new places. Seeing how her trust in him, is more an inspiration to me than I realise.
As a woman, of such young age-I cannot forget, in that culture, the preparations that were made for the birth of a baby. Even if her own parents were disowning her, which I don't know whether they did or not, Elizabeth, she would want to help. She would be Mary's mother. But then, Joseph, deciding to be a man of moral character (which I'm sure made some snicker) agrees to go into Bethlehem for the census. She's in her last month...the ride/walk...and no one goes with them. Did Mary have to tell the women not to come with her? I couldn't have kept my mother away from my kids being born with a stick?! Did they sneak out in the middle of the night? Did they all go, but split up? Regardless, if the women who were set to be with Mary at the birth of her baby were there, no way, any of them would let her give birth in a stable, no way, they would have let her travel!!!
Mary, had enough trust and courage to do it alone. She didn't know what would happen, she didn't know how to do this...she barely knew her husband! How did it all go down? Did Elizabeth teach her what to expect and how to nurse? No La Leche league for her!
What if Mary had asked for what was rightfully hers? She had given up so much...her dignity, the name of her family-which back then...was everything, could she not have a decent birth?
And what if...what if Elizabeth thought too much of John's odd nature? Come on people, you know he always had to be a little off...but if he wasn't, would he have gone, into the wilderness? Maybe the oddities in our children are what God has placed there for them to fulfill? What if she wanted to medicate or analize the strangeness away...what if?
I question a lot and trust little. I am at the point that I recognize that. I am ready to step out except for one thing...what's out there? What else needs to be given up? ALL OF IT. So much that is "rightfully mine" is not promised to me. I believe it, I want to live it.
She lived a life of pain, I know it. How could you not when Jesus is your son? I can only imagine the difficulty. And yet...did she see her Messiah come? Did she know, like we think she did?
Tough thoughts I know, It's quiet now, but a cry is about to shatter the stillness, a cry that rocks the very framework of time, a cry that makes satan swallow hard and crack his knuckles and say "it has begun" (with a fearful arrogance that he actually thinks he has a chance...I think he still does think that...but we know differently) a cry that will be met by it's twin...later, of a much deeper voice, but the match to the cry of life, the cry of death. The quiet is about to be over.
As I have been thinking this Advent season, about the journey that Mary took, the logistics of the culture and details of her pregnancy and birth, I am seeing God in new places. Seeing how her trust in him, is more an inspiration to me than I realise.
As a woman, of such young age-I cannot forget, in that culture, the preparations that were made for the birth of a baby. Even if her own parents were disowning her, which I don't know whether they did or not, Elizabeth, she would want to help. She would be Mary's mother. But then, Joseph, deciding to be a man of moral character (which I'm sure made some snicker) agrees to go into Bethlehem for the census. She's in her last month...the ride/walk...and no one goes with them. Did Mary have to tell the women not to come with her? I couldn't have kept my mother away from my kids being born with a stick?! Did they sneak out in the middle of the night? Did they all go, but split up? Regardless, if the women who were set to be with Mary at the birth of her baby were there, no way, any of them would let her give birth in a stable, no way, they would have let her travel!!!
Mary, had enough trust and courage to do it alone. She didn't know what would happen, she didn't know how to do this...she barely knew her husband! How did it all go down? Did Elizabeth teach her what to expect and how to nurse? No La Leche league for her!
What if Mary had asked for what was rightfully hers? She had given up so much...her dignity, the name of her family-which back then...was everything, could she not have a decent birth?
And what if...what if Elizabeth thought too much of John's odd nature? Come on people, you know he always had to be a little off...but if he wasn't, would he have gone, into the wilderness? Maybe the oddities in our children are what God has placed there for them to fulfill? What if she wanted to medicate or analize the strangeness away...what if?
I question a lot and trust little. I am at the point that I recognize that. I am ready to step out except for one thing...what's out there? What else needs to be given up? ALL OF IT. So much that is "rightfully mine" is not promised to me. I believe it, I want to live it.
She lived a life of pain, I know it. How could you not when Jesus is your son? I can only imagine the difficulty. And yet...did she see her Messiah come? Did she know, like we think she did?
Tough thoughts I know, It's quiet now, but a cry is about to shatter the stillness, a cry that rocks the very framework of time, a cry that makes satan swallow hard and crack his knuckles and say "it has begun" (with a fearful arrogance that he actually thinks he has a chance...I think he still does think that...but we know differently) a cry that will be met by it's twin...later, of a much deeper voice, but the match to the cry of life, the cry of death. The quiet is about to be over.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Friday, November 20, 2009
My style...
I saw this picture and immediately said...."If I could wear anything today, this would be it" In case you wanted a glimpse into my style...once I drop my weight...this is it:
NEW MOON REVIEWS!! (SPOILER ALERT)
I know this a complete 180 from my previous posts, but thus that statement explains it all.
Twilight...it's so funny all the backlash...I like to call it TwiHaters. They come out of the woodwork at the mention...Questioning faith, fidelity and fantasy...to me, that has nothing to do with it. I think that every person, man or woman, needs to have something to get together with peers, enjoy themselves and have a moment to escape reality. That is the sole purpose behind theatre...thus...my BA. For my husband it is his golf trips, where he can go away with friends he trusts and let his guard down, do something he enjoys at a level that can only be handled twice a year. It refreshes him, reminds him not to take life too seriously and in the same moment that the people he loves are worth fighting for.
For me, Twilight isn't that extreme, but it's fun. Straight up.
Okay, so we went to see the 12:05 movie last night and it was a blast. Only the second opening night I've ever been too. We got into the theatre 2 hours early and got GREAT seats and thanks to Kristen had magazines to read and La'Walker had her DS to keep us busy. A couple things shocked me...how many GUYS were there and how many non-teenagers were there! Loved both of those!
So the movie starts (Pause: Pattinson's new movie Remember Me looks AMAZING! Not what I expected and seems to be a great roll for him) The look, the feel all of it is different...thank goodness. Edward is...wait a minute...he's smiling...a lot...he's laughing! Bella...did you just crack a joke?! This is madness!
Yes, you do have to live through Jacob's wig (which looks 150%better) longer than I would like, but it is worth it to see the supporting characters get much deserved screen time.
It's tough, RPatz does a great job...both he and Stewart aren't nearly as flat as Twilight. Such a refreshing change.
I have to say with ALL the leaks and trailers, the movie still surprised....didn't look anything like what I thought it would and the scenes that I felt I saw the entire thing...was wrong! Hooray!
Oh yeah...the new sparkle and running technique and special effects....SO GOOD!
Don't want to give anymore away, but I truly enjoyed the movie. The ending is not the New Moon ending...but OH My GOsh!!! I love it and I love HOW it directly ends. I wish there was more dedication to she and Alice on the plane, but honestly, this could have been a 4 hour movie.
I walked away and NOT once got annoyed with KStew! Shocking, I know! There is one scene that the entire theatre erupted in laughter...it's not meant to be funny. See if you can figure out which one it is.
Enjoy, would love to hear what you thought...can't wait for Eclipse. Audrina...you were missed...way too much.
Twilight...it's so funny all the backlash...I like to call it TwiHaters. They come out of the woodwork at the mention...Questioning faith, fidelity and fantasy...to me, that has nothing to do with it. I think that every person, man or woman, needs to have something to get together with peers, enjoy themselves and have a moment to escape reality. That is the sole purpose behind theatre...thus...my BA. For my husband it is his golf trips, where he can go away with friends he trusts and let his guard down, do something he enjoys at a level that can only be handled twice a year. It refreshes him, reminds him not to take life too seriously and in the same moment that the people he loves are worth fighting for.
For me, Twilight isn't that extreme, but it's fun. Straight up.
Okay, so we went to see the 12:05 movie last night and it was a blast. Only the second opening night I've ever been too. We got into the theatre 2 hours early and got GREAT seats and thanks to Kristen had magazines to read and La'Walker had her DS to keep us busy. A couple things shocked me...how many GUYS were there and how many non-teenagers were there! Loved both of those!
So the movie starts (Pause: Pattinson's new movie Remember Me looks AMAZING! Not what I expected and seems to be a great roll for him) The look, the feel all of it is different...thank goodness. Edward is...wait a minute...he's smiling...a lot...he's laughing! Bella...did you just crack a joke?! This is madness!
Yes, you do have to live through Jacob's wig (which looks 150%better) longer than I would like, but it is worth it to see the supporting characters get much deserved screen time.
It's tough, RPatz does a great job...both he and Stewart aren't nearly as flat as Twilight. Such a refreshing change.
I have to say with ALL the leaks and trailers, the movie still surprised....didn't look anything like what I thought it would and the scenes that I felt I saw the entire thing...was wrong! Hooray!
Oh yeah...the new sparkle and running technique and special effects....SO GOOD!
Don't want to give anymore away, but I truly enjoyed the movie. The ending is not the New Moon ending...but OH My GOsh!!! I love it and I love HOW it directly ends. I wish there was more dedication to she and Alice on the plane, but honestly, this could have been a 4 hour movie.
I walked away and NOT once got annoyed with KStew! Shocking, I know! There is one scene that the entire theatre erupted in laughter...it's not meant to be funny. See if you can figure out which one it is.
Enjoy, would love to hear what you thought...can't wait for Eclipse. Audrina...you were missed...way too much.
Monday, November 16, 2009
...(pt 2)
God is gracious...when I'm angry He doesn't scold or take me to scripture that says be slow to anger...He holds me...He strokes my hair and sings me a lullaby...He understands and appreciates Righteous Anger.
I need to go further into the drive behind my last post...and the comments that went on it, showed me that I was not Righteous in my Anger, or at least only 1/2 way.
You see the anger towards the perversion not only pertains to the young girl, but to her mother. She, above all others, has her perception of love perverted. She has somewhere along the way, been shown that love is meaningless and intimacy matters to no one. That self, above all else, is the only thing worth protecting, at any cost. That once you mess up, you cannot go back. There are things that are "too bad" for God to forgive, and blood to redeem. She has believed the lie.
She has believed it, been defined by it and therefore passes that identity on to her daughter. My heart burns for the young girl...it breaks for her mother. She had no hope, no love and no truth.
You see, my passion is not only for the victims of sexual exploitation, but for those who feel the necessity to place them there. To rescue children from choices made for them, but to offer hope to their guardians that they are not forgotten, left behind or unable to recieve mercy. There is hope for all...I know that, I believe that...I pray that I live it.
Liberty for all.
I need to go further into the drive behind my last post...and the comments that went on it, showed me that I was not Righteous in my Anger, or at least only 1/2 way.
You see the anger towards the perversion not only pertains to the young girl, but to her mother. She, above all others, has her perception of love perverted. She has somewhere along the way, been shown that love is meaningless and intimacy matters to no one. That self, above all else, is the only thing worth protecting, at any cost. That once you mess up, you cannot go back. There are things that are "too bad" for God to forgive, and blood to redeem. She has believed the lie.
She has believed it, been defined by it and therefore passes that identity on to her daughter. My heart burns for the young girl...it breaks for her mother. She had no hope, no love and no truth.
You see, my passion is not only for the victims of sexual exploitation, but for those who feel the necessity to place them there. To rescue children from choices made for them, but to offer hope to their guardians that they are not forgotten, left behind or unable to recieve mercy. There is hope for all...I know that, I believe that...I pray that I live it.
Liberty for all.
...
I'm crying right now...slowly, painfully,quietly...it is hard to breathe and there is a not in my throat...those of you who know me, know that I cry for to reasons: Anger and for others. This is both.
http://www.greenvilleonline.com/article/20091116/NEWS/911160322/Police-now-searching-for-body-of-missing-N.C.-girl
If you paused to read it, then read on...if not...read it first.
I am truly nauseaous. 5 years old...her own flesh and blood...for men to have sex with. What the hell is wrong? Sorry, language is necessary here. My heart hurts for the children who have no choice, and know nothing different than perversion. It's not just about sex, it's about intimacy and the perversion of the most sacred of relationships. If a child cannot trust her mother...who can she trust?
I am an advocate of redemption...I live it, I believe it is the greatest thing offered to us by our God who loves and desires justice, but offers something better...to be redeemed, in the midst of injustice...but now...right now...I cry out for deliverance...for the Lion of Judah to roar in ANGER over the sick and evil perversion of what it means to love and be loved.
The fire inside me has been lit, fanned, and I can tell getting close to igniting...stand back, unless you are ready to ignite too.
Do justice, Love Mercy, Walk Humbly WITH my God....Micah 6:8
http://www.greenvilleonline.com/article/20091116/NEWS/911160322/Police-now-searching-for-body-of-missing-N.C.-girl
If you paused to read it, then read on...if not...read it first.
I am truly nauseaous. 5 years old...her own flesh and blood...for men to have sex with. What the hell is wrong? Sorry, language is necessary here. My heart hurts for the children who have no choice, and know nothing different than perversion. It's not just about sex, it's about intimacy and the perversion of the most sacred of relationships. If a child cannot trust her mother...who can she trust?
I am an advocate of redemption...I live it, I believe it is the greatest thing offered to us by our God who loves and desires justice, but offers something better...to be redeemed, in the midst of injustice...but now...right now...I cry out for deliverance...for the Lion of Judah to roar in ANGER over the sick and evil perversion of what it means to love and be loved.
The fire inside me has been lit, fanned, and I can tell getting close to igniting...stand back, unless you are ready to ignite too.
Do justice, Love Mercy, Walk Humbly WITH my God....Micah 6:8
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